Fear, revisited; a picture
There’s a picture I really wanted, but agreed without comment not to claim, because my ex wanted it and said so first. I’m not going to suggest tearing it in half, however symbolic that may be, but I...
View ArticleListening to eggs
What a funny old week. It’s included sharing breakup experience and asparagus with one of my dearest friends, to lunch with my PSO (previously significant other)* to discuss divorce settlements, to a...
View ArticleO god, Godot
I was in Ghent this last weekend, with a concert band. I’d been really looking forward to this trip, though I think now that I had also been seeing it as a marker on the calendar. It was a big thing...
View ArticleLight at the end
Are you just realising that you are transgendered? It may be a joy for some. For most of us it is unstoppable and scary. What are you going to do, at the point where it seems unmanageable, and...
View ArticleBeing, as entertainment
There was a time when people with congenital deformities accepted that the only way to survive was to accept a place in a freak show. A woman with a lot of facial hair would be the ‘bearded lady’ and...
View ArticleEvolution and entropy: the fear of falling apart
This blog is more an emergence from cloud than an incisive argument. I feel many thoughts converging, which may or may not cross in the middle, or perhaps only obliquely. But I like ‘thinking the...
View ArticleIdol thoughts
This week, bulldozers were running over 3,000 year-old treasured remains of the ancient city of Nimrud. I remember it from my university studies and visits to the British Museum, as containing very...
View ArticleDealing with disappointment
I am not a political animal. Now there’s a statement that is always followed by ‘but’! I’m not, really. I don’t feel informed, educated, well-read enough to stand on any platform. This morning,...
View ArticleIt’s not what you remember, but how
A friend of mine has been writing what we hope to be a book, with some contributions from me, interleaving experience and reflection with research. It’s not about being anything, but the meaning there...
View ArticleOrlando
It is for God to punish says his father, and a mother in another country says she hates the woman her daughter must hide in a closet when her uncles come. My partner wriggles her hand free from mine,...
View ArticleGoing Out: Eastern Germany 2017
She doesn’t quite catch my hand it falls—shatters on the ground. You never quite know. Windows down the empty way, nostalgia with suspicion — a Trabi sits on the lot, a tiny sufficient reminder that...
View ArticleThe problem with activists
In 2004 I walked into local council offices for a conversation with local officials and advisers. Somehow I had come to speak on behalf of local residents about a concerning issue. It was the first...
View ArticleKick
Clipping behind the hedgerow, hooves on the metalled road heard by horse field-bound, lone, looks up, shakes mane springs to life, snorts, stamps, neighs and runs, runs, in circles, this way that leaps...
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